one of those days.

its one of the days were you just dont really feel like waking up quite yet.
the day when you had a super fun exiting day before. and you know that this day could not possible be as fun.
one of the days when you want to plan out every second of it and have it follow that exact plan right down to the words everyone says.
yup...its one of those days and im not so sure if excited for it...yet :)

love, maddie

comfortable in my own bed.

im satisfied.
i love my bed, my room, my house.
last night i was laying in my bed thinking, as always.
for some reason the way that my bed is positioned and the way i sleep with my covers and what not makes me smile :) and i love it.
i have a bunk bed, pushed up to a wall. with very little roomwalls are at the head and the foot of my bed. therefore, i am really kinda boxed in with only one side open. I enjoy this. it makes me feel...safely satisfied :)
I only sleep with one quilt, and it is not really even a quilt, it is a very soft small pink blanket, just the right size for shoulder to toe coverage :)
for these reasons i absolutely love crawling into bed at 9 o'clock every night.
ask my mom, she will tell you that im in bed at 9 without her asking almost every night :) i enjoy sleeping, "i find peace in sleep" and i think the reason for that fact is because i love the "way" i sleep. :) ah... i want to take a nap now.

now, all this said, my parents are making me change rooms.
as a parent would you make a child that is so happy with her current room MOVE!
i think not.

mother and father,
please. im so happy were i am...:( dont make me move.

love, maddie

just in case you didnt know...

i think this kid is amazing :) hahah
tye-died with him early and it was so fun
this picture was taken that day at church.
It was such a fun day. never knew i could laughand smile so much in 8 hours. apparently i cac, cause i did :)
hahahha
thanks for an amazing day :)


love, maddie

oh and P.S.
thanks tom :) you made the picture
hahah :)

its so fun to say

when im texting i find my self saying lalala a lot :) haha i dont know why?
but i am and i enjoy it :)

love, maadie

i will miss him.

if my brother moves far away for college i will miss him a lot.

love, maddie

cup o' dirt...

its lovey.
the worms, the pudding, the oreo cookie.
who would have thought that it would be so yummy. apparently someone did.

dear cup o' dirt,
thank you for being yummy.
thank you for making my heart happy.
thank you for satisfying my stomach.
thank you just for being nice to me.
i appreciate it :)

love, maddie

why is it?

i dont know why but i cant stand waking up every morning, getting ready, and going to school. Every morning i find myself in my moms room saying "dont make me go to school please."
It doesn't work...go figure. There is no "special someone" that i love to see there. Thats at church :) hahaha
I dont really mind school, i love my friends, i love my teachers, i love the campus, and it is a pretty good environment.
I just hate having to get up and get ready for the same thing every day. School is nothing special. I never learn anything terrific. My friends are amazing dont get me wrong. But it just feels so empty and pointless. When im at church i feel like im growing as a person, spiritually, and socialy.
At school im around friends that dont share my same faith, therefore i cant really talk to them the way i can talk to my chirch friends, my church friends can relate God to all my problems. That is amazing because God is usually the reason i am having problems, because im not going to him in the hard times, and my church friends can help me with that. My school friends can just tell me to get a boyfriend "that will help" they say.
It doesnt. A boyfriend only makes it worse.
So my friends are not helping with making me like school more.
I never learn anything that i feel will help me wiht my future.
At church i learn how to apply God to my life. That is the most important thing to me. To bad school does not offer this to me.
The enviroment of school is...well its public school.
Church is...well its church.
I dont hang out with bad people at school or do bad trhings at school, I just dont do the same things i do at church.

I am finding this to be very hard for me.
To me truthful i really miss Stoneybrooke. I never thought in a million years i would say that. I dont want to go back! NO! but i dont want to stay were i am either. Im going to stay were i am. But it is a struggle. And its a struggle that i dont feel like i have the enery to deal with :/
I have been chatting to God about this. He does not really seem to have anything to say to me about it. So im going to hang in there and hope that God has a plan for me ther. Who knows maybe i will help change someones life :)

love, maddie

nathan update

he made is safely and completely done :) yeah!
here is what he looks like :)






:) took a long time, and his head fell of after 3rd period. but its ok :) hahahah

love, maddie

tie-dye

Since 5th grade me and me best friend have been planning to tie-die shirts. We finally did it on Saturday. 2 years later, better late than never right?



It was sooooooo fun and definitely worth the wait. The shirts turned out cool, well...cool might be an overstatement. They turned out...interesting... :) yeah, interesting :)
Still it was fun and im happy we finally got to do it :)
Then we wnt to church and hung out for 8 hours there :) yeah!
I love that place it is like my home. Im super greatful fot the amazing friends and pastors and leaders and what not that are there. they are an amazing family :)

love, maddie

nathan the nothosaurus :)

At school we are doing an animal report, some groups got an extinct animal and some groups were assigned a present day animal. my group received an extinct animal. In fact it lived in the Triassic period. :/ yeah! cause its very fair that some groups get a turtle and i get a freakin' Nothosaurus! ha. This made it very hard to find information on it. Lucky some dude found a whole skeleton of it (located at a museum in Berlin) so i do know what it actually looks like. Thank goodness for that, because i had to build a model of the Nothosaurus. This was a very large task. The actual thing is like 20 feet long, mine is like a foot and a half-ish. I have not painted it yet, but this is what it looks like so far. I named him nathan :)

nathan's face

nathan's profile

nathan from above

I will have more pictures of it after i paint it :) Wish me luck.
Its due on Monday...i started Friday night...we had 3 weeks to do it...i am now stressed on time...what can i say, i hate projects.
:/

love, maddie

list :) yeah!

In April a lot of my friends have birthdays. I have a list of cards to make :) Yeah! earlier i said that i love lists, but i have a hard time making them. Well, i made one :) of birthday cards i need to make :) hahaha. so wish me luck on the 6 cards i have to make :) this will be super fun!

love, maddie

somethings just make me smile

droopys :) this makes me smile.
i think i always fantasized on being a droopy after my brothers had had so much fun. Then 7th grade came and it was super fun with the girls every Wednesday, but we just had a "Christmas" party with the boys and girls :) yeah! it was so much fun! Im so sad the first year is already over and i only got to do one event with taffy, emily, jade, all the guys and girlys :( but it was still amazing and i am so looking forward to next year and future fun events! looking forward to growning closer in Christ with all the girls, making stronger relationships with the girls and guys and the leaders. Ahhhh i just cant wait for all the goodness :) Im happy i found a connection that is really helping me through my long confusing walk with God and i dont know were i would be without them, so i am super thankful for their support. :) so exited for the future years with them!

love, maddie

um...?

I feel like i might have the tenancy to blog about EVERYTHING now that im back from spring break. Is that bad? i think yes... so i will leave it to the the basics :)
I love when someone does something stupidly funny :) and forever on when you see that person you just look at them and you both start laughing because you remember the funny incident :) it my favorite :)
Also, i have always had a weird obsession with Taylor Swift. I know every song from her first album, and i knew some songs from her new album Fearless, but i just recently heard some more from Fearless and i love them :) hahaha. I find her that some of her songs really speak to me in a weird kinda funny way? yeah...i guess that is what i love about them. and they are catchy :)
I also realized that i love reading lists and i love looking at lists, but i really dont like making them...i wish i did because they help me organize, but i am never satisfied with the lists I make. bummer.

love, maddie

yes, this is true

I put my dogs food kibbles in a container and when the food runs out of the container i have to refill it. The refill time was this morning.
After i refilled it all i thought was "this is very satisfying."
Yes, i do find that refilling my dogs food container kibble with is satisfying.

love, maddie

my life has been taken over

i hate diets, not people on diets, just diets themselves.
my parents have recently gone on a low calorie diet. Because of this decision my life has taken a 180 turn...blah. our pantry used to be filled with yummy goodness :) yum.
Recently however the cookies and yummy stuff have been finished. Usually at this time my mother would buy more. But, no more have been purchased because its "temptation" to my parents. So my junk food life has been destroyed :/
Hold on...that's not the worst. the only thing that they ever talk about anymore are calories this and calories that...ha fun. If we can get through 5 minuets at the dinner table without a comment on calories we would be considered lucky :(
Its so bad that today at school i found myself clutching my friends cookie. :/ i cant help it...i have not eaten a cookie in...it pains me to say it...but its been like 4 days :(
cookies,
dont take it personally. Im not doing it to hurt you. I will digest you again soon. i promise. it might be a while, but dont worry soon you will be crunched by my jaws...soon.

love, maddie

:/ blah.

As i have been reading blogs i have noticed that everyone has very catchy creative blog name. :/
I love that people are creative...sure. But the fact that others have great blog names makes me very discontent with my own.
Well...deal with it? yeah... i guess i can go with that answer.

love, maddie

also love it

The fun of scary movies at 3 in the morning and more candy, cookies, and cupcakes then your stomach can handle with 3 of your best friends ever.
For some reason it is just the best thing ever. Last night was one of those amazing nights :)
Thanks amegops for that amazing addition to my spring break.

love, maddie

:) i love it

i love when the sky is blue and the sun is shinning and there is not one cloud in the sky. Thank you Lord for making life so beautiful.
I love theses days because we always plan to go to the beach :) i love the beach. and i really need a good tan. hahaha.
so, mall then beach, my 2 favorite things to do :) sounds like a good day.

love, maddie

bummer.

I have a Disneyland pass. but only the 2nd one, that's the one with some really stupid blackout dates :/ why would they blackout spring break and the whole month of July! So my bestfriend went to Dinsneyland on his birthday and because it was his birthday he got a free pass to go back anytime within 30 days :) so fun!
he asked me if i wanted to go with him sometime between the 18th of march and april 10th. I was so exited so emediatlaly we were trying to find a date that worked for both of us. he does not have a phone so we were emailing back and forth like 10 times a day. my schedual is always very hard to plan around because i always have soccer. Soccer basically cut out the whole month of march :/ bummer.
So spring break :) wait hold on, ITS BLACKEDOUT!
but i decided that i would pay the$40 to get in on a blackout date. So thats great right? haha wait...he is on vacation all but monday of springbreak :( and just so happened that our ride to Disneyland is in Boston on the sunday that we finally planned.
Well, there goes 23 days of non-stop planning.
So the day of fun i had planned on having with the greatest 7th graded around has been crushed.
Now i get to sit at home and watch my brothers play C.O.D.4 all day :/ yeah.

love, maddie

gum?

So i had an interesting adventure today. My friend and i were laughing so hard about a picture. We were both chewing gum, and let me tell you laughing and gum...expect the unexpected. Yes, the gum fell out of my friends mouth into my hair...gosh. Before we knew it i was screaming "i have gum in my hair!"

My friends little sister was yelling "use peanut butter use peanut butter!"

We tried the peanut butter and sure enough it worked amazing :)

First we froze the gum with a ice cube, then we smothered peanut butter all over it...ew. after a couple of minuets of laughing, crying, yelling, and everything else a girl does when gum falls into their hair.

Then my friend washed my hair in the sink for me :) despite our efforts to remove the smell i still smell like peanut butter. Even the 3 year old thinks so :/

Bummer.

So lets just hope when i go to church tonight that my friends wont be grossed out with me and my smell.

love, maddie.