11 days left?

it is so weird. this school year went by soooo fast. i feel like just yesterday i was walking through school for the first time not knowing anyone, scared and lost. in a way the year went by too fast. i dont feel like i did all that i wanted to do. and i dont feel like i met all the people i could meet. and i dont feel like i laughed and smiled as much as i wanted to.
but then again it went by to slow... too many classes, conversations, homework, short of weekends, long hours sitting in hard plastic chairs, hours writing on cold wooden desks, boring lunches, and stupid drama (all the things that made the year terrible.)
dont get me wrong i love being a kid and i never wanted to grow up. my last birthday i cried for hours the night before because i was so upset i was growing up and i did not want to. i would love to be a kid forever. i played Barbies and dolls up until last year and i thought i was going to forever but i knew that with time i would stop and sure enough i did and it is sad i miss being able to sit and pretend for hours and hours.
but now only 11 days left of the school year. its fun, exiting, scary, sad, and just weird.
i never get this school year back. i never get to go back and remember each day exactly perfect. i never get to redo what i did wrong. i never het to change anything. and if i ever feel like i want to be a kid again i never get to come back. ever.
but then again that is part of growing up. learning from my mistakes. and making new memories each day. and i am looking forward to the fun of summer and next year at school. new teachers. same friends. more memories to be made :)
ah...the year is almost over...

love, maddie